Sometimes, one's conditioning and background can cause a person to see a situation very differently.

Associated with these problems is the problem of identifying so closely with my own point of view that I
feel my personal honor depends on having my views triumph. Maybe this is what people call EGO.

Personal honor does not lie there, it is somewhere deeper. Inside.

Listening to the song 'Kaatre En Vaasal Vandhai' has a mood altering effect on me,everytime I listen to it ! Somehow makes me feel 'It is ok' ..We can work things out. 'Sab theek ho jaayega. chinta mat karo' . Maybe I should listen to it more frequently !

Another one is 'Thaniye Thanandaniye' .....Makes me be more patient ...

A.R Rahman has done a very good job in lending the music of 'Rhythm' to 'Lakeer-The Forbidden Lines' . 'Paighaam' which was 'Kaatrae en vaasal vandhai' seems to be very well done. Atleast the lyrics seem to be in synchronization with the music and the spirit of the song. Mehboob has penned the lyrics in Hindi.

This particular song has three small stanzas and at the end of each stanza there is

"Jee karta hai pank laga kar ud jaaon mein ...
Neele gagan ke baadal tujme chhup jaaon mein..."

While Vairamuthu could come up with three variations for three stanzas such as

1.

Thulli varum kaatrae thullivarum kaatrae thai mozhi pesu
Nilavulla varaiyil nilamulla varaiyil nenjinil veesu

2.

Pookalukkullae then ulla varaiyil kaadhalar vaazhga
Boomikku maelae vaanulla varaiyil kaadhalum vaazhga

3.
Kattilidum vayadhil thottilida chonnaal sariya sariya
Kaattilil iruvarum kuzhandhaigal aanaal pizhaiyaa pizhaiyaa

Mehboob could come up with only one . I don't understand why .

Shaan definitely has a great future. Croons pretty well these days. It is time we had a change from the usual Udit and Kumar Sanu.

Some moments in life were very hazy. It felt like as if I were without any emotions or passion at some point in time.Completely blanked out. What was I dreaming then ? What great thing was I chasing ? Am I a resident of some other planet as well ? Did I rent out my soul at that time ?

These days I often wonder if there is a word in English for a 'delayed reaction'.It is as though somebody pricked me with a pin some months ago, and I am crying 'oooh...it hurts' now. Why does it pain so much now ? Voicelessness, why ? I hope it isn't a disease or something. And I tell you, it doesn't help much to shriek in pain now. It is a thing of the past. The curtains have long fallen after the pricking scene.And something else is running in the theater now.Nobody even remembers any such thing. Whoever said, 'Strike when the iron is hot' , must have been one hell of a wise chap.

Anyways, the good thing is that I am slowly stuffing my regained soul back into my body. And I hope it stays there.

I feel bad words should be reserved for the right ocassions. You do full justice to those words, only when they are delivered at the right moment. If used in normal day to day language, one tends to dilute their filthiness.

What's common to Winemaking, Tailoring and Wife-beating? ;-)

The term 'Thumb rule' originates from these. Temperature measurement in a barrel for winemaking, a unit of proportions for tailoring, and 'If a stick is used, it should not be thicker than the man's thumb.' with respect to wife-beating..;-)

"Creativity is allowing yourself to make mistakes. Art is knowing which ones to keep" :: Scott Adams

Speaking of life throwing its tantrums, these days when I meet with one ,I ask 'Is this the best you got ? Hit me with your best shot and I shall stand still. I will resist the temptation to cry. It shall only make me stronger.

Assumption is a sin;funny words;funny mouse.

I assumed that good writers would live up to their words. I believed that a good writer brings out words from his heart. It isn't always so.

Now I have understood that a good writer is good with his words. And his words come from his brain. The creative part of the brain. His brain is good. Period. Doesn't necessarily mean that the person is good.

I should learn to separate the heart from the brain. And to use the latter more often,more effectively. I should learn to think more rationally. And assume less. Just like somebody said 'I read what I want and not what is presented'. Assumption makes an ass out of me. I see some people and see what I want. Not what they are. And pay dearly for it ! I should stop thinking that 'Maybe I am wrong ! Maybe things are okay' . No, face it ! Things aren't always okay. Come to terms with reality !

For the past few days my mouse(the computer one) has been behaving very funnily. Once in every few seconds, it jumps to the top of the document and wants to start from the beginning. That's it boy ! I am gonna fix you. We shall always start from where we left off and no flirting with the thought of starting from the beginning.

I should learn to be happy ! No matter what life throws at me !

Some people,including me, don't realize how much they hurt others. But they very well understand how much they are being hurt. I don't understand this selective realization.

I have lost the ability to speak effectively. Maybe I think a lot about whether to deliver the words or not, and then a very confused, grammatically incorrect version slips out of my tongue so that not much harm is caused. Which leads people to think that I am a very confused speaker.What I should understand is that words do hurt sometimes. Why should I mentally mince them before delivering ? I don't understand this selective deliverance.

There was a mention the other day about "Forget about it" . I wish I could erase certain portions of my memory. I wish I had selective amnesia.

A couple of days back I was feeling the need for a friend. A really close one. A shoulder to whom I can go to and cry my heart out . Everybody needs a good friend. And I am missing one !

Paap !

Anu Malik has once again 'scored' music for the film so aptly named 'Paap' by Pooja Bhatt.

The movie has 16 songs. Went to raaga.com for a sampler and when I saw 16 of them, I lost patience. Something tells me that this cd/cassette could be worth a buy. It will contain a wide variety of catchy tunes taken from around the world !